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2013年12月6日 星期五

再度孤獨


再度孤獨


(這篇是新寫的)

大家好!我係二少爺啊。今次我要介紹一首舊歌,大家看了題目後不要以為我會介紹1984年甄妮的《再度孤獨 (Love Is Over)》。今次介紹Gilbert O'Sullivan 1972年出版的 “Alone Again (Naturally)"一首41年前的英文舊歌,充滿哲理。

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歌詞內容大慨如下︰

在不久的以前,我生活尚算OK。某天我被女友拋棄,我爬上附近的一個塔,攀登到頂部,我想跳下去。希望女友會因我的死而後悔,讓她在教堂中成為罪人。但最後我想通了,決定唔死,自己爬落塔,我孤獨地步行回家。沒有女友,我又再度孤獨。

以前的我很開朗,積極地展望將來,但結果呢?我的期望不能達到。現實把我輾碎。究竟上帝存在嗎?如果祂存在的話,為何在我最需要祂的時候,祂不憐憫我?我又再度孤獨。

我認為世上有很多無法修補、破碎的心,亦無人會理會,我們該怎麼辦呢?我只知道我再度孤獨。

回憶裡於多年前,我記得當我父親去世時,我大哭一場。父親65歲時過身,母親不明白為什麼上帝要帶走她唯一深愛的男人,母親心傷透。儘管我安慰母親,但她沒有再說話。當我母親去世時,我哭了一整天,我再度孤獨。

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人孤身來到這世上,當然也會孤身離開呢個世界。

年輕時侯需要別人的關注,需要朋輩認同,需要「埋堆」來肯定自己的價值。生日時會找很多朋友來慶祝。及後有了自己家庭和子女,把大部分時間花在家庭上,陪朋友的時間少了,繼而疏遠了朋友。一大班朋友最後只剩下幾位死黨。人越大,生日越想跟家人慶祝(可能做了咁多年人,終於明白朋友如浮雲)

老夫妻當中有一個行先,剩下那位就更加孤獨。仔女要忙自己的家庭。老人家體能衰退和身體多病,就算跟想遊山玩水都有心無力了。

很多獨居老人要孤單地行完人生道路。死在老人院、醫院。或者在家中急病失救,等到屍體發出臭味才被鄰居發現報警。

說來雖然消極,但真實囉。

大家不妨聽聽呢首可能年紀大過你嘅英文歌。



Alone Again (Naturally) - Gilbert O'sullivan

In a little while from now,
If I'm not feeling any less sour
I promised myself to treat myself
And visit a nearby tower,
And climbing to the top,
Will throw myself off
In an effort to make it clear to whoever
What it's like when your shattered
Left standing in the lurch, at a church
Where people saying,
"My God that's tough, she stood him up!
No point in us remaining.
We may as well go home."
As I did on my own,
Alone again, naturally

To think that only yesterday,
I was cheerful, bright and gay,
Looking forward to, but who wouldn't do,
The role I was about to play
But as if to knock me down,
Reality came around
And without so much as a mere touch,
Cut me into little pieces
Leaving me to doubt,
Talk about God in His mercy
For if He really does exist
Why did He desert me
In my hour of need?
I truly am indeed,
Alone again, naturally

It seems to me that
There are more hearts
Broken in the world
That can't be mended
Left unattended
What do we do? What do we do?
Alone again, naturally

Now looking back over the years,
And what ever else that appears
I remember I cried when my father died
Never wishing to hide the tears
And at sixty-five years old,
My mother, God rest her soul,
Couldn't understand why the only man
She had ever loved had been taken
Leaving her to start with her heart
So badly broken
Despite encouragement from me
No words were ever spoken
And when she passed away
I cried and cried all day
Alone again, naturally





22 則留言:

  1. 乜咁灰呀二少爺!

    聽晚同舊新浮雲食食飯、吹吹水可能冇咁灰呢!

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  2. 卡臣,呢篇得非常真實,同我想法差唔多,所以我好認同呀,除非係突然遇上意外死咗,否則或多或少,每個人都會孤獨地死去。

    睇完有少少傷感,我每日都感覺到自己老咗少少咁,可能就嚟嗰頭近。D人成日話人生苦短,要及時行樂,但係我成日都覺得,行樂對好多人嚟講都係一件奢侈品。

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    1. 有共嗚呢...

      我呢啲中年危機,無前途又無後路
      希望老來不要頑疾,一兩個月就KO
      唔好中風、半身不逐、糖尿病等
      俾一個痛快我,可能30年後安樂死合法化

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    2. 中年危機,我都經歷緊。

      當人去到某一個階段,就會開始諗呢d問題,死係人嘅必經階段,冇人避得過,但求死得有意義。若果係好似我哋呢類凡夫俗子,都唔奢求死得重於泰山,只要死得比較舒服就好滿足喇。

      安樂死合法化我絕對支持,我覺得係德政嚟添,佢除咗可以令病人同其家人唔洗受咁多無謂嘅痛苦外,仲可以讓佢哋死得有尊嚴。

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    3. 希望好似科幻電影咁,犧牲我一人換來拯救全地球,咁就死得抵啦。

      邊個特首推安樂死,我一定撐佢!!

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  3. 卡臣:

    每個人離開母體就會經歷孤獨。孤獨的定義不只是沒有朋友。晚晚去蒲吧或唱K,都可叫做孤獨,因那些人沒有情緒上的交流。所以這首歌講的孤獨,是不全面的。

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  4. 我學緊點樣積極面對消極人生, 都幾過癮...

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  5. 一百岁都唔死嘅老人最凄凉,因为连成日同佢顶颈戈个老友记都卖埋咸鸭蛋,自己变左死净种,你话几甘孤独呢!

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    1. 如果一大班朋友,希望我不是最後一個死,起碼有人送我終

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