再度孤獨
( 這篇是新寫的)
大家好！我係二少爺啊。今次我要介紹一首舊歌，大家看了題目後不要以為我會介紹 1984 年甄妮 的《再度孤獨 (Love Is Over) 》。今次介紹 Gilbert
O'Sullivan 在 1972 年出版的 “Alone Again (Naturally)" 。 一首 41 年前的英文舊歌，充滿哲理。
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歌詞內容大慨如下︰
在不久的以前，我生活尚算 OK 。某天我被女友拋棄，我爬上附近的一個塔，攀登到頂部，我想跳下去。希望女友會因我的死而後悔，讓她在教堂中成為罪人。但最後我想通了，決定唔死，自己爬落塔，我孤獨地步行回家。沒有女友，我又再度孤獨。
以前的我很開朗，積極地展望將來，但結果呢？我的期望不能達到。現實把我輾碎。究竟上帝存在嗎？如果祂存在的話，為何在我最需要祂的時候，祂不憐憫我？我又再度孤獨。
我認為世上有很多無法修補、破碎的心，亦無人會理會，我們該怎麼辦呢？我只知道我再度孤獨。
回憶裡於多年前，我記得當我父親去世時，我大哭一場。父親 65 歲時過身，母親不明白為什麼上帝要帶走她唯一深愛的男人，母親心傷透。儘管我安慰母親，但她沒有再說話。當我母親去世時，我哭了一整天，我 … 再度孤獨。
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人孤身來到這世上，當然也會孤身離開呢個世界。
年輕時侯需要別人的關注，需要朋輩認同，需要「埋堆」來肯定自己的價值。生日時會找很多朋友來慶祝。及後有了自己家庭和子女，把大部分時間花在家庭上，陪朋友的時間少了，繼而疏遠了朋友。一大班朋友最後只剩下幾位死黨。人越大，生日越想跟家人慶祝 ( 可能做了咁多年人，終於明白朋友如浮雲 ) 。
老夫妻當中有一個行先，剩下那位就更加孤獨。仔女要忙自己的家庭。老人家體能衰退和身體多病，就算跟想遊山玩水都有心無力了。
很多獨居老人要孤單地行完人生道路。死在老人院、醫院。或者在家中急病失救，等到屍體發出臭味才被鄰居發現報警。
說來雖然消極，但真實囉。
大家不妨聽聽呢首可能年紀大過你嘅英文歌。
Alone Again (Naturally) - Gilbert O'sullivan
In a
little while from now,
If I'm
not feeling any less sour
I
promised myself to treat myself
And visit
a nearby tower,
And
climbing to the top,
Will
throw myself off
In an
effort to make it clear to whoever
What it's
like when your shattered
Left
standing in the lurch, at a church
Where
people saying,
"My
God that's tough, she stood him up!
No point
in us remaining.
We may as
well go home."
As I did
on my own,
Alone
again, naturally
To think
that only yesterday,
I was
cheerful, bright and gay,
Looking
forward to, but who wouldn't do,
The role
I was about to play
But as if
to knock me down,
Reality
came around
And
without so much as a mere touch,
Cut me
into little pieces
Leaving
me to doubt,
Talk
about God in His mercy
For if He
really does exist
Why did
He desert me
In my
hour of need?
I truly
am indeed,
Alone
again, naturally
It seems
to me that
There are
more hearts
Broken in
the world
That
can't be mended
Left
unattended
What do
we do? What do we do?
Alone
again, naturally
Now
looking back over the years,
And what
ever else that appears
I
remember I cried when my father died
Never
wishing to hide the tears
And at
sixty-five years old,
My
mother, God rest her soul,
Couldn't
understand why the only man
She had
ever loved had been taken
Leaving
her to start with her heart
So badly
broken
Despite
encouragement from me
No words
were ever spoken
And when
she passed away
I cried
and cried all day
Alone
again, naturally
